When I first became pregnant with Graham, I was told my HCG levels were so low to expect a chemical pregnancy/miscarriage. And I prayed - please, please, please let my #'s double. Please.And they did.
A few weeks into the pregnancy I had bleeding, and thought for certain I was suffering a loss. And I prayed again - please, please, please let this baby hang on.
And he did.
My Dr. discovered through ultrasound that the source of my bleeding was a cervical polyp - that caused me a trip to the ER at 15 weeks and many scares.
Around this time, the ultrasound also revealed that our baby had a cyst on his brain. And that this is sometimes considered a "soft marker" for Down Syndrome. And so I prayed - please, please, please let my child be healthy.
And at 20 weeks the cyst had absorbed and my quad screen results were better then "normal"
Also at 20 weeks, both boys developed Fifths Disease. I prayed that I would please, please, please have prior immunity, and not expose my baby to the possible hazards.
And my results came back to reveal that I had high immunity!
At 35 weeks I developed Stage II pregnancy induced hypertension. And I prayed that I would please, please, please not need to deliver my baby earlier then he was ready, because of it.
And during each twice weekly non-stress test my blood pressure stabilized.
At 37 weeks my Dr. announced that the baby was breech. And I prayed that he would flip on his own without an external version. I prayed that I would not need a Cesarean and the recovery that comes with it. Please, please, please let him flip!
And four days later an ultrasound showed he was head down!
During my delivery Graham's heart rate dropped from the 150's to the 80's. The cord was potentially wrapped around his neck. And while I inhaled the oxygen through my tears, I prayed that he would breath strong. Please, please, please God help my baby!
And his heart rate went back up. And the cord was not around his neck when he came out.
As I returned to my room for recovery, my body began to hemorrhage. And I prayed - please, please, please God help me through this pain, help me not lose too much blood.
And my uterus finally hardened.
Now we are home from the hospital. Graham is beautiful, wonderful, amazing, and healthy. And I pray...
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Thank you God.
17 comments:
It's amazing the trials we go through to have healthy babies. So happy Graham is doing well and that you are too. Thinking of you and your family!
Goodness, sweet Jan... I'm so glad I haven't put my make-up on yet this morning, because I am sobbing!
What a tender testimiony of a listening and loving God. I'm glad he knew your needs and your limits and blessed you accordingly. And now you have another little miracle to remind you every day that he loves you.
I'm putting a little something in the mail for baby Graham. I wish I could be there to kiss his little cheeks and take in all of his baby goodness... Love to you both. So glad you are home.
Jan-- you made me cry. Bless you and your beautiful baby. And congrats on becoming the mother of 3 boys! It's an exclusive and very posh club.
xoxo, m
p.s. i too am looking for your address.
I am crying too. That is such a beautiful and heartfelt testimony. The love you have for him just radiates through your words. What a blessed boy to have you as a mama. I had no idea of all of the trials you have had to get him here (which makes me miss our private site all the more) but I am so thrilled he is here and healthy and that you are too. Loves to you both!! Thank you for sharing the tender feelings of a mother's heart.
Beautiful, Jan. I, too, had no idea of all the ups and downs of your pregnancy. God is real and he hears and answers our prayers. You are such a strong and amazing woman and mother. I am so very happy that all is well with you and your sweet baby. God bless...
congrats you lucky one! i'm glad you are home safe and sound. i, on the other hand, am still preggers. again, congrats!
Congratulations on having such a beautiful baby boy! I got chills reading about your pregnancy and the one thing that kept coming to my mind is that our Heavenly Father really loves you and was watching out for that sweet little boy!
what a beautiful post... I'm so thankful for answered prayers and a God who loves us. So glad you're both home safe and sound.
I used to cry and pray into this one part of my couch when I was infertile and desperate to have a baby, and then I made sure to cry and pray with thankfulness into that same spot... with a sense of wonder.
He is AMAZING!!! I LOVE your picutres. What an awesome post. What and awesome testimony. I love his name, and I love you via the blogging world! Congrats
Thank you so much for posting this!! I know you opened your heart and put it all out there for the world to see, and that can be a scary thing to do. But your testimony has strengthened mine and I am reminded yet again of the glory of His Hands in our lives. Through Him all things are possible, including the bringing of choice, new spirits to our families. What a special baby and what a special family!! Congratulations!
Jan...I love you and I love that baby. I am so happy that things turned out so well. I can't wait to talk--maybe tomorrow? Graham is beautiful...perfect...and lucky to have such a fantiastic mom.
Jan, you really must put a warning at the top of your posts when they will most certainly make me bawl like a baby like this one did.
God is so good. So incredibly and perfectly good. I am sitting here thanking Him with you for your precious, healthy, strong, baby boy.
Wow wow wow. A beautiful boy. My deepest congratulations and love. Please tell him I knew him many years ago when he was just a name on a hypothetical "Christmas card".
He is so beautiful. I am so glad you and baby are fine.
Jan,
I need your address. again.
I'm going to be doing this to a lot of people, because when Jason switched our computer over to the new Windows 7, somehow my online address book disappeared.
Do you mind e-mailing it to me?
Hope you are feeling well & just enjoying...
kcb @ barneslawoffices.com
What a perfect addition to your family! He is just beautiful! I am glad to hear both of you are doing so well. He is lucky to have you as a mom!
ditto to everything already said . . . you, jan, are simply amazing. thanks for sharing your life with us. congrats to your beautiful family.
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